Ever feel angry?I don't mean the normal anger or irritation one feels at, lets say for instance someone kicking your pet cat... i mean the consuming murderous rage that makes you want to draw a knife with a jagged edge and plunge it deep into someone, rejoicing in the tearing of the skin, the thick wetness of blood, taking pleasure in every inch of your weapon as it slides, oh so easily into a person... only to twist it and tear it out again, spilling blood and internal organs all over your hands so that you can feel the warmth of his blood washing over you?
Ever feel that way?
Or do you turn around mentally and shrug away the mental massacre? Have you ever felt angry enough to be able to maim and murder and do it with a smile on your face? Laughter perhaps?
I feel that way now... I want to kill. In order for me to do that i have to hate...not simple hate, but passionate hate, hate that takes the sweetness of revenge to new heights. I hate. I hate and i want to torture and slowly destroy every shred and semblance of humanity that exists in the sick bastards that took little girls like Nurin and used them for their own perverted pleasures. I want to shred their sick tainted little fingers and roast them over a fire in front of their eyes, i want to tape their eyes open and scrape off the skin from their legs and then dip it in salt. I will not let them die...death may be too good for them...
Little girls like Nurin should be playing with dolls not be made into some macabre receptacle to some perverts' sexual urges... Every time i see things like this happen i see my niece and my nephews... and i lose it. I want to kill.
They caught some people recently... i want to volunteer. I know i can make them talk...
Am i losing my humanity? Am i so gone that i can actually imagine doing such atrocities to another person? What would separate me from them then? I don't know.
Innocent till proven guilty? Empty indeed seem my ideals when i stare into the face of a little dead girl. I pray that she is in a better place now.
2 comments:
What happen to Nurin is tragic.
I know u're in your serious tone when you write this, but I just can't help thinking of the time when you told us your torture method..you know the one that you'll play tick tack toe on the torture victim's eyeballs. It gives me creeps..
Maybe then the killing stops..When those inhumane rapists and murderers are tortured..Yet all that human right acts lah..ape lah, is holding back the society to do it.
wow. you make ME want to kill. where do i volunteer?
you'll never know what new heights i can bring to 'torture'
mich
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